I had a hard time accepting my homosexuality. I married a woman twenty years ago. At the time I thought I was bisexual, although she didn’t know it. But over the past 5 years or so, I’ve come to realize that I’m a homosexual. I only masturbate to men, my only fantasies are men, even when I have sex with my wife. I started watching gay porn a few years ago and I had never been so turned on. I also sucked a few cocks in college, but I thought I was just experimenting. But it wasn’t. I loved sucking cock. Homosexuality wasn’t as accepted at the time(late 80’s). During college, I did have several girl friends that questioned my sexuality. I would always pretend to get offended. In reality I was relieved that they might know. I even had a friend that told me “ I know you’re gay.” I asked her how she knew. She said there’s something about the way you act when hot guys are around!! Finally in my late 40’s I began to accept the cock lover I am. I have embraced my love for the masculine! As of now, my wife still doesn’t know, but I think she suspects. I’m hoping to soon open up to her.

Shane

Hey brother, it’s up to you to decide when to come out to your wife. Although, I would advice you to do so sooner rather than late. Time is wasting, both yours, and hers. You may expect there to be hurt feelings and bruised egos. Some women don’t take that kind of news well, and internalize it and think that she ”made you gay”. She may be mad at you for wasting her youth by not coming out sooner, etc. Whatever happens, you must ride it out, and see it through. It will be tough, but you can do it. You may feel bad for her, understand her… but you can’t sacrifice your whole life and happiness for her, or you will grow into a sad, impotent shadow of a man. Don’t settle for the comfort of the known, but instead embrace the unknown. You stand on the cusp of a life of freedom, and maybe even a second ”puberty” of sorts. When a man takes that step and starts leading the life he’s always been meant for, it’s a profound experience. One that I share. It wasn’t until I fully embraced my homosexuality that I finally felt like a real man. And remember, you are no less of a man for being homo. You are more. Good luck, bro.

Ben

I am slowly cumming around to being homosexual; I sucked my first dick last month (I am 50) and I felt excited and erotic and somewhat empowered. Listening to the above from Shane is similar to me; I want to sample more cock now more than ever. Sitting typing this has given me a huge hard on and I’m going to masturbate to the pictures on this website, dreaming of plucking the courage to take my next cock in my mouth, this time finishing him to completion!

Cameron

It took me a long time to accept my homosexuality but eventually I did in my late twenties. Before that I tried to persuade myself that I’m straight and I had girlfriends but then I realised that I can’t even have sex with them as I can’t get an erection. Then I started to date guys and here I am a cock sucker who can’t think of anything else but gay sex.

Steve

To Shane: Looks like you are describing me. You are a my mirror image. If you ever want to discuss in private emails let me know and I would be happy to talk to someone exactly like me. Cheers

Charles

17 thoughts on “The Cock Lover I Am

  1. I’m 70. I was single and living alone for over 25 years. My first gay experience was with an older boy in high school who gave me the most incredible blow job. I jerked him off. For years I fantasized about how his mouth felt as I came so hard. The feeling of his hard cock in my hand, the scent and feel of his warm cum as it ran down my hand. For years I jerked off reliving that experience. I wanted to do it again, but fear and religious upbringing stopped me. Finally, at 54 living alone I took the plunge. The only thing I was upset about was that I had waited so long. I was in deep. My love of sucking cocks and just being around other naked men was strong. When I married, I thought those urges would pass as I totally love pussy as much. When sex with my wife stopped due to her health issues, I found myself cruising the local gay hot spots. I now continue to thoroughly enjoy sucking cocks and now top if it goes there. She doesn’t know and at this point I don’t see the need to tell her. We have a wonderful relationship, just no sex. I consider myself bi, because I still love pussy, but I admit I enjoy another man’s naked body more. To suck and swallow is to me the ultimate in manly sharing and I love it.

  2. I am slowly cumming around to being homosexual; I sucked my first dick last month (I am 50) and I felt excited and erotic and somewhat empowered. Listening to the above from Shane is similar to me; I want to sample more cock now more than ever. Sitting typing this has given me a huge hard on and I’m going to masturbate to the pictures on this website, dreaming of plucking the courage to take my next cock in my mouth, this time finishing him to completion!

    1. So glad you liked my post Cameron! And thanks to Seb for sharing it. Makes me happy to know there are other like minded men!

      1. Hey Shane and Cameron too, nice cocks by the way……
        Your lives are completely familiar – welcum!!
        I would also love to chat privately, I see an email below I’ll see if I can get in touch.
        Big naked hugs guys….

        1. I didn’t find your contact? Would love to suck more cock, but I’m privacy, where I can take time, feel safe and play for hours on a throbbing shaft

      2. Hello Shane,
        Your story could be mine. After 20 year marriage and 3 kids I finally came
        out( actually got busted by my daughter, ha!). Best and hardest thing that ever happened to me. I hope you do the same to spare you and your wife eternal pain and sadness. Live the life you were meant to, you’ll be a better person and so much happier. It’s scary and not easy…best of luck.
        Matt

      1. Hi Matthew,
        Thanks for the kind words! I can’t believe you were busted by your daughter😮 I’m hoping to take the leap soon!!

    2. I can so relate. I was 54 when I sucked my first cock. I’m now 70 and I have sucked quite a few over the years. When I get to the point that I can no longer get hard or cum, I will continue to suck and swallow because I simply enjoy it so much.

  3. I have been attracted to cocks since I was young but I have only had sex with men a few times. Due to my shyness I cannot solicit or be forward in any way. How do I find men who just want sex ?

    1. I was the same way, very shy. I found that the ABSs, theaters or cruising the local gay cruising spots has helped me overcome that. I don’t like clubs but some gay dating sites can be helpful. I joined three popular ones with much success. Good luck to you

  4. To Shane above:
    Looks like you are describing me. You are a my mirror image.
    If you ever want to discuss in private emails let me know and I would be happy to talk to someone exactly like me
    Cheers
    Charles

    1. Hi Charles! I’d love to chat privately with you. I love meeting and chatting with other men in my situation. Let me know how to contact you.
      Shane

  5. It took me a long time to accept my homosexuality but eventually I did in my late twenties. Before that I tried to persuade myself that I’m straight and I had girlfriends but then I realised that I can’t even have sex with them as I can’t get an erection. Then I started to date guys and here I am a cock sucker who can’t think of anything else but gay sex. 😉

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